Motivation.

I have been seriously lacking in the motivation department lately.

School, housework, it's so hard for me to accomplish anything. I'm graduating from BYU in 6 weeks. The end is in sight, which should give me more motivation, but somehow it gives me less.

I've always been this way. I keep myself super busy, and eventually I always hit a wall. I hit this point where nothing seems more important than snuggling up in my bed and ignoring everything. I am well aware that it is totally irresponsible of me to think this way. I am slowly learning to recognize when I am nearing that point, and try my best to avoid it.

Now what? What can I do to find my mojo again? I've started making to do lists, even with the simplest of tasks. That way I can actually check things off. When I can check things off, I feel a little bit more productive, even though I may not be accomplishing much. Then, I am a little bit more motivated to finish the more difficult things on my list.

I am glad that although I struggle with finding motivation, at least I am aware of my struggle, and can take steps to avoid it. Hopefully I'll be able to find my mojo and hang on to it just long enough to get through graduation!!

I really can cook. . . .

I've been house-sitting for some neighbors for the last two weeks. Being here has been marvelous, but aside from the obvious perks, it has given me some insights about myself.

The house I am staying in is absolutely beautiful. It is well designed and decorated, and I love spending time here. They have a marvelous home gym, a legit home theater, and a beautiful, well-equipped kitchen. I also love that I get to snuggle with my neighbor's adorable dog. :)

While I've been here, one of my good friends has come over nearly every evening to work on homework, watch movies in the theater, and have dinner. I have cooked full meals for us at least 5 times in the last two weeks.

Typically, I don't cook. I usually come home from work and eat something quick and easy. I'm a big fan of heating up a can of soup, eating a bowl of cereal, or making a quesadilla. These last two weeks, I have really enjoyed cooking actual meals. I realized I really do have the skills to cook if I choose to.

One night, I made garlic-herb salmon with lemon basil rice and a lemon butter sauce. Another night, I made Asian fried rice with chicken and eggs. I made baked tilapia, white cheddar pasta, omelets, and other dishes. All of them turned out to be quite fantastic. It was comforting to realize that I haven't completely lost all my cooking skills. :)

So now what? What am I gonna do with this knowledge? I'm going to cook more. Not only is it much, much healthier, I really did enjoy cooking, and I want to continue to cook on a regular basis. I don't mind cooking for myself, but I'd rather cook for someone else! If anybody wants a delicious home-cooked meal, just let me know!

(You can do the dishes.)